I don't know what to call this one...

Writing used to come easy for me. Like it would be a leaky faucet -- always had something to say so it was easy to write. These days, I think I stay in my head a lot more than I used to. I'm not as outgoing or outspoken. I generally just go with the flow.

I practically live in my head. I go through the motions of every day living. Well, that isn't true. I just don't say a lot and thereby I'm always told I'm too quiet. Too reserved. However, get enough drinks in me and I become a chatterbox. I don't think I'm using liquor as my segway to being more lively. No, I don't think so. I'm just saying that I'm not as vocal as I used to be in my younger years.

I used to be able to just say whatever is on my mind without any care in the world. Sometimes, I still think I do. But I definitely have a filter now.

For the most part, whatever I say these days aren't meant to be hurtful. Nothing I say is intentional, unless I want it to be intentional. It's a bit odd that I don't say things as I used to. I mainly say it inside my head. And for those who know me well enough, know when I'm thinking something that I want to say but I don't end up saying because, you know, being tactful is the name of the game nowadays.

Job offer

I recently accepted an offer and will start at the new job on the last Monday of this month (4/24).

It will be similar to what I was doing at Covance prior to me leaving there. A part of me wishes I stayed because I had developed great relationships with people, but I wasn't going anywhere there. So, I left and did a short stint with Republic Services where I learned people get so passionate about their trash ...and then, I left that, too, and landed in market research where I sort of learned what a Project Coordinator does ...and I left that as well due to its hostile work environment. It was a lesson learned the hard way (TIP: Look up companies on Glassdoor! And pay attention to the reviews.)

And here I am. Waiting for the new job to start. It's going to be an intense 12 week training.

Moving Forward

I neglected to mention that J and I reconciled. I moved back in with him a couple of months ago. Anyways, J and I want to start a family sometime soon. We are planning on getting a house in a couple of years, and keeping the condo as rental property.  

A lot has happened actually in the last several months:

I started a new job in January and left it as of yesterday. I start my new job in a couple of weeks. I'm excited. 

I need to work on writing again. Just carve out a few minutes a day and stick to it. Wish me luck!